Stuck in my head.....

October 28, 2018

It is Sunday night and my boys are in bed. I am making dinner for my and my hubby, leftovers for me and something quick and easy for him. Thing is, I am losing patience with everyone and everything. I am so stuck in my own head that I don't know which way is up right now.  Everything seems to be bothering me and I feel like nothing I am doing is right or will make a difference. 

Someone who I looked up to for my teen years and performed my marriage could have been killed yesterday doing his job that he loves, while those who were murdered were simply doing what they loved to do, praying to god, seeking peace in this crazy world. 

How do you explain that one? 

I teach in a synagogue, my children and family attends multiple synagogues. We are not safe anywhere it seems.  I already looked over my shoulder at the movies, the mall, walking around big cities, the subway and train...and now this. This is the world I am raising my children in and it scares me. 

None of that makes me feel better about the other things swirling in my head; my money issues....my health journey, my struggles with food, feeling lost, lonely, missing my friends....  sorry, not trying to throw a pity party, I got my myself into some of these situations, the money and being fat ones..... but... it doesn't make them hurt any less or be any less hard.  

I am sticking with my workouts, and eating as best I can, but the rest, not sure how to get my head wrapped around that without getting sucked in too deep. 

I work my ass off to make extra money and it just builds and builds...... I just feel like it is a slope I can't climb up. 

'til next time xx 

October 23, 2018

Today is not my day one, that was in June when I hit my lowest point in how I felt physically, emotionally, mentally and physically.  It was when I reached out to my Beachbody friends and took a leap of faith and signed up as a coach, signed up for shakeology and Beachbody on Demand.

Nothing else had seemed to work, though I don't think I was really trying that hard to be honest. I said I was, but always came up with an excuse about working out, eating healthier.  It was easier to make an excuse than actually do what made sense and would help.  It makes me sad to read that line. We all know that doing anything is better than doing nothing, but I was doing nothing about my life, nothing but complaining and making more excuses. 

I jumped in - photos of shakes, of sweaty selfies and it worked. I lost some weight and along the way signed up some customers - which is awesome! But something was still missing. The summer wasn't as great for my journey as it could have been and then I read "Girl, Wash Your Face" by Rachel Hollis and my whole world changed - That book is my JAM, she is my spirit animal!

I promised myself first that I would give up soda and on Sept. 12th, 2019 I did that! Checked off the list!  Then on Oct. 15, 2019 I did something that scared me - I started Beachbody's 80 Day Obsession!  It hasn't been easy, I am not going to lie, but as Autumn Calabrese said, it's progress not perfection and everyday, I am hustling and making progress! 

I turn 40 on January 5, 2019!  I am ready to ROCK that shit! (sorry) 

I also have goals for my business - emerald, ruby, diamond, OH MY! I want to hit SC every month - I want to mentor new coaches and share what I know. 

I am a work in progress, but I already made the excuses for you - let's do this!

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'til next time xo